*The Highest of Highs and Lowest of Lows*
A 4th year Medical Students Perspective after Failing to Match

*Trigger warning: suicidal thoughts*

Before I get started with writing, I just wanted it to be known that I was asked by a dear friend and colleague to write this for her blog. Full disclosure: writing has never been a gift of mine, but what follows is coming from a place of honesty and truthfulness. I hope someone out there can learn from my experience and mistakes. And for those of us that felt the devastation and heart break that I felt on that day, hopefully you know you are not alone.

Match Day is synonymous with a celebration for most medical students from the moment we enter medical school. It is the day you learn where you get to pick up and move to next in the chapter of learning the art and science of practicing medicine. It is what people have spent many nights dreaming about for countless years − when all the hard work, sleepless nights, exorbitant amounts of stress all go away because it paid off. The sacrifices of missed family vacations, weddings, birthdays, parties all makes a little bit of sense for that moment in time. Well, what happens when that day goes from what is supposed to be one of the happiest moments of your medical career to one of the worst days of your life in the blink of an eye?

Making Myself 100% For the Transition to Residency [MERCK MANUAL STUDENT STORIES]

Finally. Residency.

I have to be completely honest when I say that I never actually expected this day to come. I had a countdown on my watch for graduation and I remember when the days were in the triple digits. Having graduated this past weekend, I am so thankful and grateful for the opportunity to continue my education into residency. Knowing that the next five years of residency will be tough, I decided to spend the last couple of free months making myself, “100% for Residency.” What exactly does that mean? It means that I want to make sure that I’m the best version of myself going into intern year whether it be mentally, physically, or emotionally. Here are the ways I am doing that: